With recurring failed attempts to achieve my goals, no friends or amusement around and chronic IBS, I'm losing hope to do my Karma. I have never ever given a thought of being at this stage thus had no contingency plans. I'm losing my strongest weapon Time, with my mind having no control over it. Since decade, I felt myself very strong and had plans to change my life but suddenly all changed. I'm now looking for excuses to hide my loses & not do what I'm suppose to. I was the man who forced himself to utilise seconds but now days are slipping. I'm not able to express myself anywhere to anyone, the dark room within 4 walls has become my world & image on macbook my identity. Vicious cycle of thought is moving into infinity every-time I'm trying to get hold of it. All source of inspiration from Bhagwad Geeta to Sandeep Maheshwari or TedTalk only able to help me temporarily. This is the first time, I experienced that even relentless efforts could bare no fruits however being naive is my new excuse. With access to storm of success & failure stories from LIGO to Rahul Gandhi, from Obama to Kohli, from Wall Street to Kailash Satyarti, from Oscar to Sunny in this digital age, has stopped buzzing me.
The question is I'm I going to work like never before or faint in my own infinity ?
The question is I'm I going to work like never before or faint in my own infinity ?
nicely written......just wanted to tell you that,,u r not the only person with this,,,it happens wid all,,,,dont loose hope.....HOPE=Hold On Pain Ends.....remember"even this shall pass"....
ReplyDeleteand its always gud to express stuffs like this in any way,,,verbaly or penning down,,,,, ....in case of any help,,let someone know,,,,koi na miley to hum hai.....
thanks brother ... glad to see your comment ... and many Congratulation, for your wedlock ...
DeleteYou'll not faint in your infinity......time will help you to get out of it for sure.......Stay positive in the worst situations......being positive in normal situations are common..... try to be something different......and the best part is I know you have the guts......
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